Monday 28 May 2007

It was so irony that night. Went for life saving lesson after school. Coach told us after today’s training, tell him whether we still want to quit or stay. Training went on as usual. Then later coach started his DEVIL training. It was really training for MONSTERS! He made us swim to to one end of the pool to another end of the pool. Each time we reached one side of the pool, we had to do push-up, and another side is sit-ups. Goodness, somemore have to be fast when swimming because we got to be quick to cut down on push-ups and sit-ups. I nearly died. 10 sets of this. Go there and come back is only counted 1 set. ARRR!!! But in the end, all of us completed it. It was exhausting but nice training. After that, we had a debrief. I had a shock for life. He said today was the last lesson. No more training. 3rd week of june will be the test. I was dumbfounded. I was sad. Normally, i am the first one to rush home after training becos its super boring. Thats why u see me hating monday. But i didnt feel that way. It was sad. Gonna leave everyone else le. Haiz. It was so irony that night. =(

Wednesday 30 May 2007

Marketing test today. Ytd chiong the whole night to finish web applicatino project and study till 2 for marketing. Wah. DIED-ED in the morning today. Could barely open my eyes. It was so scary!! 20% sia the test! The test was only average. MCQs were quite hard and the short structured were ok. Hope i can pass and do well. It’s like so boring today. Started losing interest in life again. Only feel like studying. I miss my sec friends and VA ppl. ARRR!

Ytd woke up early in the morning for scouts venture meeting.
Wow suddenly feel so into scouts, feel a sense of belonging to it, maybe because they are nice to talked to. =)

After that quickly rushed down to Post office to collect my Microsoft Office Kit. AFter that walked to ten mile junction for LONELY lunch, where LAKSA was my only friend. =(

Got home after that to wait for the internet guy to pick me up to fix my network card. but then dad got home with my aunt. cos at night we are going for dinner at newton circus. woo.

canceled the trip with the internet guy as aunt can drive me there to funan. save money. hehe. BUT it took us 1 hour from my hse to funan. cos my aunt was a direction idiot and she just got her licence. so she didnt really know the directions. it also took her 15min to park a car from a spot. she’s so funny..somemore telling us..”Parking time liao ar…get ready for heart attack!”

I love my ah ma because she can cook really great food. but dunno why ytd i just could not stand her. nagging and nagging and nagging non stop. after that got my CPU repaired. JOY JOY JOY.

at around 7+, aunt went to fetch my sis for dinner. around 9+ we reached there. woohoo.
ordered CRABS, CLAMS, COCKLES, OYSTER OMELETTE, MAN TOU and CHICKEN WING. I couldnt resist it……..YUMMY YUMMY. Food make me go mad. One day should really go jio my friends go eat. everytime they on one. =(

After that home sweet home =/

Life is like a race..
If only I could be the first to finish the race, then everything will be so much simpler…

Why is life so so so miserable for me?

As i see every stroke you all made, how i wish i were there.
As i see every stroke you all hit, how i was i could be playing.
As i see every stroke you all hit, how i wish i could be catching those hits.
As i see every stroke you all made, my heart start to cry.

Why don’t you all accept me. Am i lousy? Or is it just fate? My heart’s brittle. Pls dun break it.
My mind’s confuse and my heart’s aching. I like table tennis. I love table tennis. Can’t
I get what i hoped for?
Ping Pong Ball, I can see you. I can feel you. I can touch you. But, i just can’t BELONG to you.

Haiz, i bet no one understand how i feel. I’m just a kid in everyone’s eyes. Not a single soul. No one will ever understand how i feel. I’m alone, fighting all thse crap. Argh, just live me alone, better off be dead. I’M SO BLOODY SAD!

Haiz. Boring Saturday. Have to stay at home to mug for Essentials of IT. but then, lazy to start, blogging here. Later meeting my long lost sec friends for reunion. woohooo! i have so much lost interest in life, i bet cheryl and isaac too! No aim of what im doing now, just doing things blindly. just feel like staying at home watching TV the whole day and shut myself with doors and windows. lately feeling lifeless in school and lively at home. rather go work and earn money and don’t have to face so much boring lecturers. -phew.
ARRR. I’m lost. Help me!

Haiz. my home blog system is down. cant even blog. then here i am, in sch blogging now. woo it works!
This few days, assignment test test test. just finished DATA STRUCTURE test tues. damn bloody hard. haiz. then next mon still have Essentials of IT test. sianz. so many things.
Haha. Yesterday met up with JD, Muneer and Halim for dinner at KALLANG. stupid. SO FAR. everytime say east side got nice food to eat. nabei. in the end also not very nice ma. sian. reached home at 9.55pm. only could watch 5 min of 幸福双人床. nice lei.

Dunno why this few days lost interest in school. the feeling weird weird de. go sch lecture no heart listen, tutorial so-so, everytime in sch only think of eat and eat and slack. sleepy here and there. end sch everytime at 6pm. sianz. B-O-R-I-N-G.
Table tennis never even call me, i want table tennis lei. I dun want CCA-less sia. PLS JUST CALL ME CAN. IM STILL WAITING.

ARR! Im exhausted luh. sometimes i just want to be alone. ARR!

PASSION VS SKILLS

why cant passion take over skills? haiz. so disappointed by myself. haiz. ytd was table tennis trial. got dievided into school team and non-sch team. not fair one. school team is like auto go in de. non- sch team still must challenge 1 on 1. haiz. in e end i kena one china guy. he confirm beat me de luh. sian. is that OUT? no i dun want. i want to be in the sch team. so i went to ask the in charge guy whether can i try again. he told me im the only left-handed in the trial and they are looking for left handed ppl in the team, cos they lack. then they ticked my name and say will inform me again. so i dunno whether im in anot. haiz. so how. Is my chances of getting in strong?
HAIZ.
WHY CANT PASSION TAKE OVER SKILLS?? anyway, i also not lousy ma. i average leis. haha. haiz.
PASSION PASSION?
SKILLS SKILLS?

Wooohoo!! What a day. Shall update my blog again.

040507 Fri
Fri. Black Friday. So shag. Today got so many tutorials and lectures. marketing. accounting. computing maths. business communications. the weights of the book is enough to kill me. WEAK!
scored full marks for the mini test of computing maths. so happy. hehe. after that had a great chat with cheryl and wan xin. u know what i meant cheryl and wan xin. haha. stupid isaac everytime got lecture everytime play with me one. then make me kena distracted never listen lecture. So i told myself, LISTEN TO ERICA FONG!!! HAHAHA! it was a shag day. but overall, it was enjoyable. too bad people, no photos for u all to see cos no one send me photos and seriously, im so lazy to upload a photo.

050507 , Sat
Spending all my money away already. Got to have money. So i went back to work as usual. It was a new project and charities again =) They simply give good money. Haiz, but didnt really perform well and only did $210 of sales..$52.50 for my pay only. sianz.

060507, Sun
Woke up at 10.45am, had breakfast and watch HUANZHU GE GE 3. So nice. Addicted. After that ate mum’s porridge for lunch. Yum Yum. I just love mum’s poriddge. Got changed and went to meet isaac( or u can call him sheng wei or cock) , aixing, thomas( ding jiang) for a study at orchard coffeebean. zzz. was suppose to do my accounting homework lo. yet that stupid shengwei suggested watching SPIDERMAN3 which got me distracted. stupid shit. zzz. watched at cathay. only have front seats. no choice. spiderman was tempting. so didnt. watching a movie is so bloody expensive. $9.50 for a ticket and $7 for a hotdog bun and drink. $20 gone. Sianz. but the movie was nice. woohoo. Venom venom!! spidey spidey! After that dingjiang started complaining to go potong pasir, so quickly i ate OYSTER MEE SUA for dinner then HOME SWEET HOME =)